Empty

Mom said that talking in the house sounds funny now, with the furniture all gone...

My cellphone's speed dials are now half empty...

Next year is a blank...

But I was just thinking,
hey, I'm really good at acting;

Phyllis tells me to go on art residencies
Takis kept pushing me to go into HCI even one year earlier
McDougall thought I had a lot of potential with Japanese studies

... somehow I manage to appear agreeable to everything and everyone -- things that don't agree with each other...

I suppose it was a skill developed in K-12
Moving around,
You kinda get good at it
Subconsciously anyway...

But what does that make me?
A sphere of swirling masks,
A different mask to face each circle of people I deal with--
and nothing at the core.

I've already been too privileged all my life. I have so much other people don't have. I have no right to cry.

...but right now I just...

feel empty inside.